Piles of Stuff...

Weight This Morning: 174lbs
Goal Weight: 140lbs
Mood: Disappointed

I'm rewriting my blog because I just went through a rant that was probably a page long and realized in case someone ever reads this blog they might take something I said the wrong way. That being said I'm disappointed because this weekend I was hoping to tackle the stacks/piles of papers and just stuff that has been slowly collecting in my house and either putting stuff away or throwing stuff away but I didnt get to it. I am the completely opposite of a pack rat. I would much rather throw something away than potentially let it sit in a closet or on a shelf somewhere going unused for the next 5 years. Apparently, I'm a rare breed because no one else in my family seems to think that way and it is causing me some heartburn. This is not to say that I'm a super clean person. I am not. The preferred state of my house is to have everything gleaming and I really enjoy the faint smell of bleach or vinegar or lemon in the air which hints that everything has just been cleaned. But life does not allow me such conveniences. I dont get to clean nearly as often or as thoroughly as I'd like to. Nonetheless, there is a difference between having a messy house from everyday activities and having a messy house due to piles of stuff that just collect and are NEVER put away. Slowly the latter state is taking over the former state and it is getting to me! I literally would like to take some days off at work to go home when no one else is there and just clean it one square foot at a time. But again, life does not afford me such conveniences. I am however determined to make a dent in it this week. Everyday this week after work I plan on going to the gym, picking up Rebekah and spending at least two hours on some part of the house.

This weekend was also horrible from a workout/eating point of view. To put it simply, I havent been to the gym since last Wednesday and I ate terribly all weekend long. Whenever Jacob comes back into town I get screwed up. I'm so happy to see him and spend time with him that I dont particularly like to be away from him unless I have to. He's not supposed to travel anymore though and I am going to the gym tonight so hopefully I will get back into the swing of things permanently. The thing is, I'm supposed to be making a life change. If this is truly going to be a permanent addition to my schedule I've got to figure out how to always make room for it.

Here's to hoping and working towards a successfully productive week in terms of cleaning, eating well, and working out hard. It will definitely be a major prayer request this week...